On Free Will, Choose God, Choose Hell

I would rather believe there is no god
than believe there is a being so cruel
that he allows children to suffer 
just to make them love him more.
You see, it’s sick to let people suffer
when you have the power to help them
just to teach them a lesson.
No suffering is ever justified
by making you a “better person” afterwards,
especially if the only aspect that makes you better
is loving the god that didn’t stop the pain.
No amount of free will
ever justified rape, or murder, or torture;
no freedom of action ever made child abuse alright.
So in short, just let me explain.
An all-powerful all-knowing being
can only be benevolent
if that being prevents unnecessary suffering.
(And no suffering is ever really necessary.)
So as long as there is rape, murder, torture, abuse, starvation, and unnecessary pain,
there can be no loving god.
Because I don’t give a damn about this free will nonsense
that took away my ability to be free.

God doesn’t cause suffering.  The choices of mankind cause suffering.  Satan and his demons cause suffering.  Yes, God allows suffering because he allows the natural consequences to our sin.  If there were no consequences then everyone would just do whatever they wanted to do.  God did give us freewill to choose our lifestyle choices.  If we have sex outside of a monogamous relationship we might get an STD.  If we murder someone we might go to jail. etc.  If our daddy goes to jail, the child might suffer the consequences.  Children suffer because adults make fully informed choices to sin.  I suffered child sexual abuse at 4 years old because of someone else’s bad choices.  It messed me up for a long time.  But God’s merciful love towards me has turned what was bad into something good, in that He has enabled me to minister to others who have hurt like I have.  God very well could have made us all robots and not allowed us choices and free will. But God didn’t want robots to serve Him, He wanted those who would choose to serve Him out of their love for Him.  God has been so good to me in so many ways, how could I help but love and serve Him.  If you only knew how many times God mercifully saved my life, you would understand.  I pray that one day you will.  I can’t bear the thought of someone choosing hell over a loving God, who sent His only son to die in their  place for their sins and mine.  If I didn’t do everything possible to convince them of the truth, I would be responsible to God for their soul. You are free just like the rest of us to make your own choices, but with the consequences that go with them.  If you choose to reject God and Jesus, that will be hell and eternal separation from the God who did everything He could to bring His children back to Himself. My heart aches when my children suffer, but sometimes I have to allow them to suffer the consequences of their own mistakes in order to make them a better person.  If my child chose to sin, knowing it would hurt themselves and others, I would be remiss in not letting them learn that what they did was wrong.  If you tell your child not to run in the street and they do it anyway, they would get run over.  So in order to save them from a worse consequence sometimes you must spank them or use some other form of discipline to correct them to help them understand that it’s dangerous.  You must teach them not to talk to strangers or they might get kidnapped and abused or worse.  We sometimes have to teach our children lessons to keep them safe.  Sometimes we may let them suffer a little to save them from suffering a greater consequence later.  Hell is a greater consequence.

About mamaheartfilled

I am a mother of eight wonderfully challenging children and fourteen grandkids, of whom I am very proud. I am also a bi-vocational ordained evangelical minister, and a Christian Counselor. I received my B.S. degree in 2004, studying primarily in the areas of Psychology, with minors in Religion and English. I received my Masters Degree in 2009 in Psychological Counseling with an emphasis in Christian Counseling. I have endeavored to paraphrase the Bible, both Old and New Testaments. It is my hope that it will be of some use in the great commission of Christ. My ministry is primarily geared toward victims of sexual and domestic violence, including victims of childhood sexual abuse, whether currently or in the past. Since I have personally experienced the healing hand of God in overcoming many of the life issues that Christians may face, I feel qualified and compelled to discuss them in a truthful and open manner, as God’s word tells us that “We shall know the truth and the truth shall set us free.” God has brought me through such diverse tribulations as sexual, physical, and mental abuse, being a victim of a drunk driving accident, spousal pornography addiction, adultery, divorce, remarriage, a very brief, though unjust, incarceration, and having experienced multiple miscarriages and various other trials. I have been asked to leave two Southern Baptist Churches, due to my being a female, ordained as a minister, and fired from a SBC sponsored Christian School (mostly white) for speaking out against racial prejudice in the Family of God. Through God’s merciful forgiveness of my own sins and inadequacies and God’s grace given to me to forgive those who have been a stumbling block to me, I have overcome many of these adversities. God’s word tells us that “All things work together for good to those who love the Lord and are called according to the purposes of God." Since I have this hope, I believe that God has blessed me with the ability to confront and relate these issues to the Christian community around the world. I hope to be able to use my personal experiences as a ministry of God’s grace and in the comforting of the people of God with the truth of God's mercy. I claim II Corinthians 1: 3 & 4 as my calling, which states: “Blessed be God, the Origin of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Origin of mercies, and the God of comfort; who comforts us in all our troubles, that we may be able to comfort those who are in trouble, by the comfort we ourselves have been given by God.” As I have received the gift of God’s healing, I hope to be able to bring the peace beyond understanding to others with the message of God’s mercy and grace. My love for the Sovereign Lord of my life, Jesus Christ, along with my passion for writing has drawn me to explore these commonly experienced crisis issues from the perspective of my own experience in the hope that I may bring an empathetic and compassionate insight to God’s people. I am now a published author and have several books in publication, including my autobiography, "A Little Redneck Theology." The views expressed in my writings are strictly my own insights, acquired from personal experience and diligent study of the related topics and God’s word concerning them. Though I am an ordained minister, my views should not be considered authoritative. I believe that the Christian community’s ultimate authority is the guidance of the human heart by the Holy Spirit and the Word of God.
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