I don’t know where home is, where home is anymore

And I’ve lost the love I had, my love forevermore

I’ve dreamed some dreams, from which I prayed to never awake

And I’ve broken some promises I swore I’d never break

The fear that I am lost now shakes me to the core

No, I can’t find where home is, where home is anymore

I’ve walked a long and lonely road, a long and lonely road

And I’ve carried a very big, a big and heavy load

No, I can’t find my way back, back from where I’ve come

And the rain has chilled me, chilled me, chilled me till I am numb

To have known that I was lost then shakes me to the core

No, I can’t find where home is, where home is anymore

To have loved and lost is life now, yes, it’s life, I suppose

To have heartaches and pain now is just the way it goes

But there’s a place love never dies, where love never dies

A place tears never drop down, never drop from our eyes

So if home is where the heart is, I’ll travel, travel on

And I’ll walk tirelessly till I find my way home

Yet, a light in heaven’s window shines out into the dark

And a voice in the silent night makes my hope’s fire spark

My heart jumps at the flickering, the flicker of the light

That shines so faithfully into the blackest of nights

Yes, I hear God’s voice a calling, a calling me home

To the place the Spirit’s wind blows, where the wind has always blown

And though I still walk a long road, a long and lonely road

I’ll walk so faithfully now to my heavenly abode

Yes, God calls me to another place, a place I’ve never been

From a life spent so vainly in my brokenness and sin

Where I’ll never know this heartache, this heartache anymore

And I’ll know where my home is, my home forevermore

Yes, I hear the sweet, sweet sound now that leads me far way

And shows me where to walk now, where I’ve walked till today

It echoes, echoes silently, in my mind and in my heart

And on this sinner’s sorry soul it makes its holy mark

God is calling, yes, calling, yes, God is calling me home

To the place my heart belongs now, to the home I’ve always known


About mamaheartfilled

I am a mother of eight wonderfully challenging children and nine grandkids, of whom I am very proud. I am also a bi-vocational ordained evangelical minister, and a Christian Counselor. I received my B.S. degree in 2004, studying primarily in the areas of Psychology, with minors in Religion and English. I received my Masters Degree in 2009 in Psychological Counseling with an emphasis in Christian Counseling. I have endeavored to paraphrase the Bible, both Old and New Testaments, for the last ten years or so and am working on a final edit, now. It is my hope that it will be of some use in the great commission of Christ. My ministry is primarily geared toward victims of sexual and domestic violence, including victims of childhood sexual abuse, whether currently or in the past. Since I have personally experienced the healing hand of God in overcoming many of the life issues that Christians may face, I feel qualified and compelled to discuss them in a truthful and open manner, as God’s word tells us that “We shall know the truth and the truth shall set us free.” God has brought me through such diverse tribulations as sexual, physical, and mental abuse, being a victim of a drunk driving accident, spousal pornography addiction, adultery, divorce, remarriage, a very brief, though unjust, incarceration, and having experienced multiple miscarriages and various other trials. I have been asked to leave two Southern Baptist Churches, due to my being a female, ordained as a minister, and fired from a SBC sponsored Christian School (mostly white) for speaking out against racial prejudice in the Family of God. Through God’s merciful forgiveness of my own sins and inadequacies and God’s grace given to me to forgive those who have been a stumbling block to me, I have overcome many of these adversities. God’s word tells us that “All things work together for good to those who love the Lord and are called according to the purposes of God." Since I have this hope, I believe that God has blessed me with the ability to confront and relate these issues to the Christian community around the world. I hope to be able to use my personal experiences as a ministry of God’s grace and in the comforting of the people of God with the truth of God's mercy. I claim II Corinthians 1: 3 & 4 as my calling, which states: “Blessed be God, the Origin of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Origin of mercies, and the God of comfort; who comforts us in all our troubles, that we may be able to comfort those who are in trouble, by the comfort we ourselves have been given by God.” As I have received the gift of God’s healing, I hope to be able to bring the peace beyond understanding to others with the message of God’s mercy and grace. My love for the Sovereign Lord of my life, Jesus Christ, along with my passion for writing has drawn me to explore these commonly experienced crisis issues from the perspective of my own experience in the hope that I may bring an empathetic and compassionate insight to God’s people. I am now a published author and have several books in publication, including my autobiography, "A Little Redneck Theology." The views expressed in my writings are strictly my own insights, acquired from personal experience and diligent study of the related topics and God’s word concerning them. Though I am an ordained minister, my views should not be considered authoritative. I believe that the Christian community’s ultimate authority is the guidance of the human heart by the Holy Spirit and the Word of God.
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