Menopause or Pregnant?

I have been on a rollercoaster ride for the last ten years or so, feeling pregnant all the time with all negative home pregnancy tests. In the last year or so I have skipped periods for a month or so and started them back again several times. In the last three months I had two very spotty periods and then no period. I wasn’t worried about it cause I had two negative pregnancy tests after each period and another after no period. But something has changed. I started feeling what feels like a baby moving. And I’ve gained 15 lbs for no apparent reason. When my jeans got tight I was a little concerned and did another test just to be safe. Negative again. Then a few weeks later, that old familiar movement. I did another test just to check again with another negative result. What is going on? I’m 53 and I feel pregnant. Breast are sore with what appears to be colostrum beginning. Queasy in the mornings. Peeing all the time. Leg cramps at night. And now something is movi g in there! Or should I say someone is moving in there.

I began doing some research into the matter and found a story of a 53 year old woman who had twins. And then I found many more women between 45 and 55 that have had successful pregnancies. Could it be possible at my age? The answer to that one is a resounding yes.

As I was doing my research I found out that certain foods could increase your fertility. Almonds, Sweet potatoes, greens, avacodos, citrus fruits. Thinking back, I have always loved sweet potatoes and ate them frequently. Oranges as well. I have recently been eating a lot of baby spinach and kale. I keep Nature Valley Almond granola bars beside the bed, so when taking blood pressure meds and vitamins in the morning, I won’t throw it all up. But the most unusual thing is I started eating avacadoes this year. I went on a disaster relief mission trip to Orange Texas and on the way home we stopped to eat and I got a kale and cranberry salad with avacadoes on the side. I had never tried them before but I loved them. When I got home I started buying and eating avacados.

Another thing that I recently started doing was taking extra vitamins A, B, C, E, Calcium+D, and folic acid. In my research I found that all of these have beneficial effects on fertility. Then I found that folic acid has an influence on twinning. Then I found out that older age has an influence on twinning. Then I remembered that my family has twins, lots of them. Then I found out that twins can give false negative on pee tests.

Wow! Could I actually be pregnant with twins and just be throwing off false negatives. I then researched false negatives and found out that home pregnancy tests are not as accurate as they are made out to be and that perimenopause can throw off false results as well. I discovered that a beta blood test was needed to be more accurate, but even these can give off false negatives if your hormones are either very low or very high, like when you have multiples. I went and got the blood test with negative results on Jan 16th. I still not convinced I’m not pregnant though so I have scheduled an obgyn for next week. A physical exam and ultrasound should be a little more diffinitive. So I will wait and see.

The most interesting part of this story is that last April, I went to church and was praying for some missionaries. I had gone up front to pray for them, and when I finished praying, I turned around and saw a very pregnant lady I didn’t know directly behind me. I said, “oh, how long?” She answered, “In about a month.” I smiled at her and walked back to my seat. Half way there, I heard a voice speak to me, “This time next year.” Was that God’s voice I heard? I believe so. I researched that phrase and found it in Abraham and Sarah’s story in Genesis three times. I wrote it down in my journal and kept it in my heart.

Now the question is will I go to where God will lead me, without knowing where I am going?

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Blessing the food; ways to say “grace” before meals

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And Grace will Lead Me Home

And Grace will Lead Me Home


“You’ll make the 50th year holy, and announce freedom throughout the land to all the people. It will be a Jubilee to you; and each of you will go back to your own land, and to your own family. That 50th  year will be a Jubilee to you.”


I have been studying the concept of the Jubilee years in Scripture the last couple of years.  I read Jonathan Cahn’s book entitled “The Mystery of the Shemitah” which explains a good deal about the Jubilees in Scripture.  The Jubilee years were the culmination of the Shemitahs which came every seven years.  The seventh Shemitah or the 49th year ended and the 50th year was the Jubilee.  In the Jubilee year all the slaves were to be set free and return home to their own land and families.  From September 2015 to September 2016 is the jubilee year in our lifetime.


As I finished up the last chapter of this book, many things were still up in the air with my relationship with husband.  He lived at our home where I had lived with him for twenty years and I lived at my mobile home a few miles away and that seemed to keep the peace between us for the most part.  We visited one another as needed for sexual relations and remained faithful to each other throughout our separation, though strong temptations were there at times.  We had been separated for nearly 14 years when my son decided to move back home with his father for a time until he could get on his feet financially.  This put me in a quandary because I kept his children while he was at work.  This would put me in close proximity to my husband much more than I really desired at the time.  But it was necessary so I agreed to do it, but with caution.


Well his house was in shambles for the most part and had not been thoroughly cleaned in years.  I knew that I had to somehow get them moved in and put the house back in order to make it relatively safe for the children.  And I knew I was going to have to tiptoe around my husband to get it done.  Needless to say it was a very rocky start and conflicts were many.  I did a little here and there and got yelled at more than I cared to, so I began to work in the yard to stay clear of my husband as much as I could.  Our marriage was much like the jungle I was trying to clear out of the back yard. It was grown over with weeds and bushes as high as the house and seemingly impossible to penetrate.


My son and I began to clear the underbrush that had taken over the back and side yards.  We first got an area on the side yard cleared so the kids could play outside some.  The swing set area in the backyard was completely taken over by wild privet bushes, so I found some clippers and began to slowly make a pathway from the back porch to the swing set area and cleared it out.  I fixed some tire swings on the swing set using old tires and rope I found in the yard as the swings were no longer there and created a play area there for the grandkids.  Then when I had the yard pretty much squared away I went to work inside again.


I tried to organize the kitchen a little at first and conflict arose there so I left it alone for a while.  Then one day one of the kids was in the front bathroom so I went in the back bathroom.  It was disgusting to say the least and had garbage piled up to the counter top on the side of the toilet, so I got a garbage bag and started cleaning it out.  I cleaned right down to the mouse family living in the buried garbage can that I couldn’t even see before.  So I worked on that bathroom most of that day and then started some supper.  When my husband came home he found something to yell at me about and then went to his room pouting.  A little while later he came into the kitchen, kissed me on the forehead and said thank you.  I was in shock. This was my first real break through in that jungle of weeds in our relationship and I almost thought I saw a glimmer of hope there shining through the underbrush.


My son tried to mediate between us as much as possible and tried to keep him off my back as much as possible. I told him I would not be able to continue keeping the kids if I didn’t have some peace and he didn’t keep his father from yelling at me every time I cleaned something or hung a picture on the wall.  Slowly but surely we made progress in the house and by the time Thanksgiving came round, we had the cabinets put up in the living room, but still no flooring. I organized and rearranged the living room and put up some Christmas decorations for the kids. I brought a tool cabinet from my mother’s house that had been my Dad’s before he died and put all my husband’s tools from the dining room table into it outside the house.  I had the house pretty much in order for the holidays but I was still sleeping in the recliner in the living room and had no bed to sleep in on the weeks we had the kids.


I continued to go home every other week that we didn’t have the kids just to get some rest and catch up some at my place.  But I was exhausted by the time I got home.  I started getting headaches from not being able to sleep well in the recliner and I was miserable, so I brought a cot from my house and put it under Selah’s bed so I could roll it out when needed.  But it was still quite uncomfortable and I just wasn’t sleeping well.


By this time things were starting to calm down between my husband and I, and I began to pray on whether or not God was telling me to go home to my husband’s house permanently. I knew the Jubilee was a time for going home and the concept intrigued me. I felt in my spirit that God was telling me it was time to go home, though I still couldn’t see how that might be possible.   We had been separated for fourteen years and I didn’t know if I could even learn to be a wife again. I had been alone for so long that I was used to doing things my own way.  So I prayed for three signs to show me if it was God’s will for us to reconcile or not.


The first sign was that my husband would call me “beautiful”, which he never did.  He always called me “sexy” or something like that, but never beautiful.  Well, lo and behold, not very long afterwards, he did just that.  I was in shock and unbelief. The next sign that I prayed for was a little more telling.  I needed a place to sleep comfortably and my side of his bed was covered with a two foot high pile of junk that had been there for at least a year.  He never changed his sheets, but just threw a blanket on top of his side of the bed.  I prayed that if it was God’s will that I come home permanently that he would clean off the bed and give me a place to sleep comfortably.  Well I went home the next week as usual and when I came back, lo and behold, the bed was cleaned off and the linens washed.  I was truly in shock and unbelief then, but I knew in my heart that God was telling me it was time to go home.  The third sign I prayed for was that we would renew our wedding vows by our 35th wedding anniversary, which is still to come in August of 2016.


Well, I started sleeping in his bed again and you can imagine what happened next.  My sexual appetite increased by leaps and bounds and I was getting satisfied more than I had in the last fourteen years.  And just when I thought things were going well, Satan threw a fiery dart or two.  I was looking for some pocket change to take the babies to the thrift store one day and found some porn DVD’s in my husband’s dresser drawer.  I was devastated.  I couldn’t go through that again. I was very angry and hurt and broke them in pieces. I confronted him about it a couple of days later after many tears.  He said that they were old DVDs that he had just recently found again and confessed to me that he was still struggling with whether or not to watch them again.


It had not been very long since he had come by my house one day and wanted sex, so I had agreed.  After we finished, I came out of the bathroom, and saw something flashing.  I looked up on my wall shelf and saw a small camera.  He had filmed us without my knowledge or consent.  Needless to say, I had thrown a fit and he gave me the chip that held the pictures.  I tore it up and disposed of it.  I guess he decided since I wouldn’t allow him to have pictures of me he would just have to have other pictures and was tempted with porn again. I had told him any time he needed it I would fulfill his needs as much as possible, but we still had trouble finding the time to get together as much as we needed to.  We both struggled with the temptation to masturbate when we needed to and the other just wasn’t available.  So finally being able to have sex practically any time we wanted was refreshing to both of us the but porn find just made me put the brakes on and question everything again.   Was I doing the right thing or not?


We had a revival at church shortly after this, in January, and it was exactly what we needed at this time.  It was the Life Action Refuel event from the first Life Action revival I had gone to two years earlier.  The theme this time was grace:  Learning to have grace for one another.  God reminded me about how much I needed His grace in my life and showed me that I needed to have more grace for my husband, even if he didn’t deserve it.  And he showed my husband that he needed to have more grace for me even when I didn’t deserve it.  More grace –  that was exactly what we needed.


After the revival I started doing a 30 day Bible Study Journal of Encouraging Your Husband that I received at the ladies luncheon during the Refuel event.  At first it was hard trying to find positive and encouraging things to say, but as I began searching my heart for things that I loved about my husband, it became easier to find things.  I found old pictures of him that I loved and taped a few of them in that journal.  I had prayed for many years that somehow we would be reconciled, and even when I had no hope in our own ability or desire to see it happen , I had not given up on the hope that God, my great and mighty God, who can do anything, had the ability and desire to do so.


Even when I thought all hope for reconciliation was gone and started a divorce process just a few years before, God stopped me and said no.  I could not get passed God’s word that said, “I hate divorce.” I simply could not do something I knew God hated even when finances were devastatingly bleak and I got no child support.  But in the last year or so before my son had moved back in with him, my husband had begun to help me with the electric bill and water bill when he could.  It got cut off a few times but he always helped me get it turned back on within a week or so.  I learned to survive and I had slowly begun to learn to trust him again for my provision, though I knew ultimately that God was my provider.


God had recently shown me some amazing things about Him being my provider.  I had long wanted one of those supersize towels that would wrap all the way around me.  One day some college kids moved out of a house near by me and left a lot of throw-a-ways in the garbage to be picked up.  I stopped to look as I love to curbside shop and one man’s trash is another’s treasure.  I found a garbage can full of freshly washed towels and took them home to go through and see if they were any good.  Most of them were still in very good shape and at the very bottom was that supersize towel that I had wanted.  God is good!


Another time I was driving home from my son’s apartment when I spotted some building materials being discarded at a house that was being redecorated.  I had been praying about getting some flooring for my bathroom and bedroom as I had pulled up the old carpet a couple of years before and just had the subfloor.  When I stopped to look, there was some bathroom wall board that looked like tile, all different sizes.  I loaded it up and took it home.  It was enough to do the bathroom walls and cover the floor as well.  When I finished it, I prayed out loud to God my thanks and said, “Now if I just had some flooring for the bedroom.”  I went back to keep the kids the next week and when I left to come home, there on the side of the road was some snap together wood flooring and a lot of it.  I went through the pile and got all the good pieces I could find and got some pieces that still had some good ends on it that I could cut.  Needless to say, it was enough to finish my bedroom floor.  I did it all myself, and though not perfect, it looked really good.  God is so good.  He is certainly a good provider and has shown me very vividly how he will provide for me whether through my husband or somewhere else.


When I first stating going back to my husband’s house to keep the grandkids, I had just gotten to the point where I didn’t really need anything much and my mobile home was sufficient for my needs, even without power on occasion, as I had now gotten oil lamps, candles, and a wood stove for heat and cooking when necessary.  So I was struggling just a little bit on whether to start all over again back at my husband’s place and was wavering quite a bit in my emotions.  It just seemed like for every step we made forward, we’d take two steps back.  I finally decided, I was just going to take a leap of faith and do it and see what happens.


Satan was very real during this time and put every stumbling block he could in my path to discourage me.  One day, I brought my chickens and rabbits to my husband’s place and put them in a chain link kennel and the dogs tore through the chain link and killed them all.  But I saw immediately that it was simply Satan trying to discourage me, as was the earlier porn episode and a few other incidents that were very discouraging to me personally.


Anytime you try to do what God wants you to do, you can be sure that Satan will inevitably put things in your path to make you stumble and to discourage you.  But God will also encourage you during this time.  Before Christmas, I was doing the War Room Bible study on Wednesday nights at church and was relearning some spiritual warfare that I had almost forgotten. I was also learning that when prayer is spoken out loud it is most powerful.  I spoke that flooring prayer and it came to pass within a week or so. Other prayers that I spoke out loud were being answered in miraculous ways.  But even those prayers that were simply in my heart were also being answered.  God knows our deepest longings and needs, but there is something about the spoken word that is noteworthy.  God spoke the world into existence and a prayer spoken out loud to Him is powerful.  I had gone to see the movie “War Room” at the end of that Bible Study with the ladies group at church and it was truly a powerful influence on me at this time in my life and it was all about grace. There was a scene in it where Priscilla Shirer was made to see by Mrs. Clara how she needed to have grace for her husband, even when he didn’t deserve it.  Boy, did that hit home.


Sometime about February, I was listening to the radio and Amazing Grace was playing.  I came back in the room about the time the line “and Grace will lead me home” was sung.  It dawned on me at that time that this was the perfect title for this chapter of my life story, as it has been all about grace.  Learning to have grace for each other, even when we don’t deserve it. Learning to forgive each other, even when we don’t feel like it or really even want to.  Praying to God to help us forgive and trust one another again, to help us truly love one another again.  God’s grace is truly amazing and we simply need to have more grace for one another to survive in this world.  God has grace for us when we don’t deserve it and we need to have grace for others even when they don’t deserve it.  Sometimes that can be very hard for us, but with God’s grace for us, we can have grace for others in our lives.  God’s word tells us that He won’t forgive us our sins if we don’t forgive those who sin against us. His grace makes that possible when it seems humanly impossible for us to do. What is impossible for us is possible with God.


On the last day of the Encouraging Your Husband Bible study it called for writing a poem to my husband and this is what I wrote:


When I said I do


When I said I do I meant it forever

I thought we’d always be together

When I said I do  I meant it from my heart

I never thought we’d be apart

But life happened and times changed

And my emotions got all rearranged

I forgot who I was and lost you for a time

I walked away and left you behind


I walked alone for many years

I prayed to God’s listening ears

I prayed for you and I prayed for me

I prayed with a hope I couldn’t see

I prayed that somehow we’d find each other

And learn again to love one another

I prayed for God’s strength to see me through

Until once again I could hold on to you


But God was my first love and always has been

And I needed His grace for all of my sin

He loved me unconditionally by His grace

Until I could lovingly seek His face

And just as He loved me, I try to love you

I try to love you in spite of what you do

I try to forgive when it’s least deserved

I try to love you without reserve


All I ask is your grace in return

That to love me again your heart might learn

Forgive me when I least deserve it

Love me when you can hardly endure it

God will teach us His loving grace

If We together will seek His face

If we walk together in God’s great love

We’ll walk forever in eternity above


I now await my 35th wedding anniversary.  My God’s grace be sufficient for us!

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When I said I do

When I said I do


When I said I do I meant it forever

I thought we’d always be together

When I said I do  I meant it from my heart

I never thought we’d be apart


But life happened and times changed

And my emotions got all rearranged

I forgot who I was and lost you for a time

I walked away and left you behind


I walked alone for many years

I prayed to God’s listening ears

I prayed for you and I prayed for me

I prayed with a hope I couldn’t see


I prayed that somehow we’d find each other

And learn again to love one another

I prayed for God’s strength to see me through

Until once again I could hold on to you

But God was my first love and always has been

And I needed His grace for all of my sin

He loved me unconditionally by His grace

Until I could lovingly seek His face


And just as He loved me, I try to love you

I try to love you in spite of what you do

I try to forgive when it’s least deserved

I try to love you without reserve


All I ask is your grace in return

That to love me again your heart might learn

Forgive me when I least deserve it

Love me when you can hardly endure it


God will teach us His loving grace

If We together will seek His face

If we walk together in God’s great love

We’ll walk forever in eternity above

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Hell is too good for this piece of crap.  I pray God’s justice comes quickly for this one!  

A Houston man wrote “come sleep with daddy’s little girl” in a Craigslist posting and got caught trying to sell sex with the 4-year-old for $1,000, prosecutors said.

An undercover Houston vice squad officer captured Andrew Turley, 28, after the sicko discussed his “casual encounters” section ad in 30 emails and later showed off a sedated, naked girl in a bed, said Jeff McShan, a public information officer in the Harris County District Attorney’s Office.

Turley had told the undercover cop “it may not fit in” but said the officer could “do whatever he wanted” to her, McShan said.

Turley was charged Monday with child trafficking and prostitution at his arraignment after the Thursday arrest, KTRK-TV reported. People at the hearing let out audible gasps when they heard the charges against him.

The judge ordered Turley to stay away from the girl, her mother and all children, the TV station reported. It wasn’t immediately clear if the victim was Turley’s child or if he was involved in a relationship with her mom.

Both prostitution and child trafficking carry potential five- to 99-year prison sentences, and Turley’s bond is currently $500,000 on each charge, according to McShan.

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“The failed political adviser who became a writer and predicted the invasion of Iraq.” (My interview in the Israeli newspaper, Ma’ariv)

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MaarivEarlier this month, after speaking at the Jerusalem Leaders Summit on the differences between Radical and Apocalyptic Islam, I was interviewed by a columnist for Ma’ariv, a popular Israeli daily.

We discussed the subject of my speech, but she became much more interested in my failed political consulting career, my life as the author of political thrillers, and my faith in Jesus.

The article — linked below — was published in Hebrew. But here is an English translation, if you’re interested.

The failed political adviser who became a writer and predicted the invasion of Iraq

By Tal Schneider, Ma’ariv, November 15, 2015

(Jerusalem, Israel) — All the candidates who’ve worked with Joel Rosenberg lost, so he became a writer of bestselling security thrillers portraying the Israeli prime minister attacking Iran.

In an interview he says what he has learned from working with Netanyahu, and how Jesus changed his life

After working as…

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Russia’s New ‘Nuclear Torpedo’ Can Create Giant Tsunamis And Wipe Out Entire Coastal Cities

Source: Russia’s New ‘Nuclear Torpedo’ Can Create Giant Tsunamis And Wipe Out Entire Coastal Cities

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Is Google Paving The Way For The Anti-Christ?

When one considers what Revelation says about no one being able to buy food or anything else without the mark of the beast, along with recent moves by bank to move to a cashless system, it seems Kurzwell may very well unwittingly be helping to usher in the Tribulation. He had best be careful, he may not like the implications of the Frankenstein monster he is attempting to create and unleash on the world.

Source: Is Google Paving The Way For The Anti-Christ?

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Demographic Winter Showing World Biblical Law Of Sowing And Reaping

“We have been obsessed for so long with the fear of population explosion that we don’t think much about what a low birth rate means. Because we tend to think of wealth as a static lump, we assume that people will get poorer if there are more of them to share it. The truth is almost the opposite: wealth is the product of activity and exchange. More people working, more activity, more wealth: fewer people working, less activity; eventually, more poverty.”

Source: Demographic Winter Showing World Biblical Law Of Sowing And Reaping

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End Times Hitting Stage In Debate Over Christian Beliefs

Source: End Times Hitting Stage In Debate Over Christian Beliefs

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Horrible! After Gay Marriage – Liberals Now Pushing to ‘Normalize’ Pedophilia! – Eagle Rising

Horrible! After Gay Marriage – Liberals Now Pushing to ‘Normalize’ Pedophilia!

Source: Horrible! After Gay Marriage – Liberals Now Pushing to ‘Normalize’ Pedophilia! – Eagle Rising

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46 Population Control Quotes That Show How Badly The Elite Want To Wipe Us All Out

46 Population Control Quotes That Show How Badly The Elite Want To Wipe Us All Out.

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Anti-Christian Hatred Sweeps The World

Anti-Christian Hatred Sweeps The World.

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Archaeologists Uncover Entrance Gate To Goliath’s City

Archaeologists Uncover Entrance Gate To Goliath’s City.

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Why So Many People Think Pope Francis Is The Antichrist

Why So Many People Think Pope Francis Is The Antichrist.

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Did Isaac Newton Predict Major Turn In Bible Prophecy This September?

Did Isaac Newton Predict Major Turn In Bible Prophecy This September?.

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What Is Going To Happen In September 2015? Why Are So Many People Storing Food And Supplies?

What Is Going To Happen In September 2015? Why Are So Many People Storing Food And Supplies?.

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In September 2015, Agenda 21 Will Be Transformed Into The 2030 Agenda

In September 2015, Agenda 21 Will Be Transformed Into The 2030 Agenda.

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Mississippi Menopause

Mississippi Menopause

One minute I’m hot, the next I’m cold

And now I’m a little bit nuts I’m told

I can’t sleep at night and I’m tired all day

It makes me unbearable some would say

It reminds me a little bit of Mississippi weather

Wet with dew and baked like shoe leather

My temperature rises and falls with the wind

And you never know what’s comin’ ‘round the next bend

I’m as moody as a hurricane a stormin’ and a brewin’

When I’m calm the next one’s just simmerin’ and stewin’

I’m up and I’m down from one day to the next

The hormones a ragin’ have my soul vexed

Time and again my monthly’s are late

Or missing entirely like my last forgotten birthdate

I feel like I’m pregnant nine months out of the year

With nothin’ to show for it but headaches and tears

The only thing fruitful around here are my kids

Not a moment to rest ‘cause now there are grandkids

The only empty nest around here is outside

‘Cause mine sure is full of little mouths open wide

Yes this Mississippi menopause brings radical change

And sometimes I wonder if my mind is deranged

The men in my life make me want to pause from men

And the mama bear in me just wants to hide in her den

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I don’t know where home is, where home is anymore

And I’ve lost the love I had, my love forevermore

I’ve dreamed some dreams, from which I prayed to never awake

And I’ve broken some promises I swore I’d never break

The fear that I am lost now shakes me to the core

No, I can’t find where home is, where home is anymore

I’ve walked a long and lonely road, a long and lonely road

And I’ve carried a very big, a big and heavy load

No, I can’t find my way back, back from where I’ve come

And the rain has chilled me, chilled me, chilled me till I am numb

To have known that I was lost then shakes me to the core

No, I can’t find where home is, where home is anymore

To have loved and lost is life now, yes, it’s life, I suppose

To have heartaches and pain now is just the way it goes

But there’s a place love never dies, where love never dies

A place tears never drop down, never drop from our eyes

So if home is where the heart is, I’ll travel, travel on

And I’ll walk tirelessly till I find my way home

Yet, a light in heaven’s window shines out into the dark

And a voice in the silent night makes my hope’s fire spark

My heart jumps at the flickering, the flicker of the light

That shines so faithfully into the blackest of nights

Yes, I hear God’s voice a calling, a calling me home

To the place the Spirit’s wind blows, where the wind has always blown

And though I still walk a long road, a long and lonely road

I’ll walk so faithfully now to my heavenly abode

Yes, God calls me to another place, a place I’ve never been

From a life spent so vainly in my brokenness and sin

Where I’ll never know this heartache, this heartache anymore

And I’ll know where my home is, my home forevermore

Yes, I hear the sweet, sweet sound now that leads me far way

And shows me where to walk now, where I’ve walked till today

It echoes, echoes silently, in my mind and in my heart

And on this sinner’s sorry soul it makes its holy mark

God is calling, yes, calling, yes, God is calling me home

To the place my heart belongs now, to the home I’ve always known

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One God

One God


I hear the twittering of the birds

I see the glory of the flower

I see the majesty of the trees

And know the awesomeness of Your power

I feel the sun shining in its strength

I see the moon glowing in the night

You paint the stars on the canvas of the dark

That we might know the power of Your might

I feel the water splashing on my feet

And the cool grasses wedged between my toes

I feel the earth crumbling in my hands

and I plant the seed that only You can grow

Oh my God when I see the world You made

And contemplate Your creative wonders

I feel so very small amidst it all

And think of all our manmade blunders

Oh, how we’ve destroyed the earth and its blessings

How we’ve squandered its precious treasures

Oh, how we’ve lost the land of our heritage

Only to find we have nothing of measure

We sell our birthright for a pot of stew

And cast off Your blessings for monetary gain

We sell the property of future generations

And we treat Your gifts with utter disdain

Oh God, forgive us our many sins

We’ve taken for granted Your wonderful ways

We completely fail to keep Your Word

And still we know Your amazing grace

You came from heaven to live as flesh

And graciously took us by the hand

You taught us to overcome our sinfulness

By faith in the blood of Your holy lamb

One Savior for a dying world

One sacrifice for all of time

One Lord to whom all will bow

One God forever mine

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Fears surround us, tragedies come

Troubles all around us and we are undone

Education won’t help us and jobs are scarce

Employers just shelve us so people are fierce

People are desperate, policemen are jailing

The politicians hesitate and governments are failing

Markets are falling for the rich and the famous

But Jesus is calling and money won’t save us

Put your trust in Jesus, the Son of God

The God who sees us when our hearts sob

Fires are burning, storms are raging

Stomachs are churning and time is fading

Volcanoes tremble, the earth is quaking

God’s people assemble, others are shaking

The moon turns red, the stars won’t shine

Christians lose heads, their lives on the line

Jesus is coming, and Judgment is looming

Emotions are numbing, God’s anger is fuming

Dust off your Bible, God’s Holy Word

Be His disciple and do what you’ve heard

Choose eternal life or choose eternal death

Accept Jesus sacrifice or save your breath

Just turn from your evil and take Jesus’ hand

Yes, run from the Devil and make a stand

Whoever confesses Jesus before men

He will confess before God in heaven

No hypocrite will enter that heavenly place

He’ll accept no sinner who won’t turn their face

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Appollyon (the Destroyer) is about to be let loose!

Will The Large Hadron Collider Open Up A Portal To Another Dimension?

“LHC is built on the site of an ancient town that was dedicated to “Apollyon” in Roman times.” Revelation is coming to pass before our eyes.  They are about to let Apollyon (Satan) out of the pits of Hell!

CERN Aerial ViewWhat in the world is going on over at CERN? Are scientists playing around with forces that they simply do not understand?  Some of the things that I am going to share with you in this article are deeply disturbing. The European Organization for Nuclear Research (also known as CERN) is purposely smashing particles into one another at astonishingly high speeds.  If you think that sounds incredibly dangerous, you are not alone.  Scientists all over the world have suggested that the bizarre experiments taking place at CERN could either open a black hole, destroy the entire world or open up a portal to another dimension.  But none of those concerns have been taken seriously.  Instead, scientists at CERN just continue to smash more and more particles into each other at higher and higher speeds.

Just recently, I was at a meeting during which Brad Scott suggested that the horrific earthquake in Nepal on April 25th coincided with some very unusual activity at the Large Hadron Collider.  I had never heard this before, and since I am skeptical by nature, I decided to not just take his word for it and look into it myself.  And the truth is that it is hard to come to any solid conclusions about this.  You can watch this video and decide for yourself.

But without a doubt, I believe that there are reasons to be deeply, deeply concerned about what CERN is doing.  If you are not familiar with  the Large Hadron Collider, the following is some pretty good basic information from Wikipedia

The Large Hadron Collider (LHC) is the world’s largest and most powerful particle collider, the largest, most complex experimental facility ever built, and the largest single machine in the world.[1] It was built by the European Organization for Nuclear Research (CERN) between 1998 and 2008 in collaboration with over 10,000 scientists and engineers from over 100 countries, as well as hundreds of universities and laboratories.[2] It lies in a tunnel 27 kilometres (17 mi) in circumference, as deep as 175 metres (574 ft) beneath the Franco-Swiss border near Geneva, Switzerland. Its first research run took place from 30 March 2010 to 13 February 2013 at an initial energy of 3.5 teraelectronvolts (TeV) per beam (7 TeV total), almost 4 times more than the previous world record for a collider,[3] rising to 4 TeV per beam (8 TeV total) from 2012.[4][5] On 13 February 2013 the LHC’s first run officially ended, and it was shut down for planned upgrades. ‘Test’ collisions restarted in the upgraded collider on 5 April 2015,[6][7] reaching 6.5 TeV per beam on 20 May 2015 (13 TeV total, the current world record for particle collisions). Its second research run commenced on schedule, on 3 June 2015.

As this second run progresses, the number of particles that are being smashed together will continue to increase.

So is it really a good idea to be increasing the frequency of collisions so much?  The following is an excerpt from a recent press release that contained some of the specific technical details…

As for any machine exploring a new energy frontier, operators at the LHC face many challenges on a daily basis. Since the start of Run 2, they have been gradually increasing the intensity of the LHC’s two beams, which travel in opposite directions around the 27-kilometre ring at almost the speed of light. The LHC has run at the record high energy with each beam containing up to 476 bunches of 100 billion protons, delivering collisions every 50 nanoseconds. In the coming days, the intensity should increase further with a new rhythm of 25 nanoseconds. After a planned technical stop in early September, the teams will also be able to increase the number of bunches with the goal of reaching more than 2000 bunches per beam by the end of 2015.

“During the hardware-commissioning phase, we have learnt to manage carefully the huge energy stored in the magnets. Now with beam commissioning we have to learn progressively how to store and handle the beam energy,” said CERN Director of Accelerators and Technology Frédérick Bordry. “Our goal for 2015 is to reach the nominal performance of the LHC at 13 TeV so as to exploit its potential from 2016 to 2018.”

At full capacity, the Large Hadron Collider can smash protons together at a rate of a billion per second.

That is a number that is almost unimaginable.

So precisely what are they hoping to accomplish by this?

Most of the articles about the LHC in the mainstream media discuss mundane scientific research goals that don’t really seem to justify all of the time, effort and money that are being expended.

Could it be possible that the top officials at CERN actually have something else in mind?

The director of research at CERN, physicist Sergio Bertolucci, has stated that the LHC may create a “door” to “an extra dimension”.  According to him, something might come out of that door, or “we might send something through it”

A top boffin at the Large Hadron Collider (LHC) says that the titanic machine may possibly create or discover previously unimagined scientific phenomena, or “unknown unknowns” – for instance “an extra dimension“.

Out of this door might come something, or we might send something through it,” said Sergio Bertolucci, who is Director for Research and Scientific Computing at CERN, briefing reporters including the Reg at CERN HQ earlier this week.

But why create a portal to another dimension if he doesn’t have any idea what we might encounter?

Or does he?

Other prominent scientific voices have expressed deep concern about what might happen at CERN.

For instance, Stephen Hawking has suggested that the LHC may be capable of creating a black hole that could swallow our world and destroy the entire universe

Stephen Hawking says the ‘God Particle’ that scientists believe created the world could actually end it, too.

The particle – know as Higgs boson – “has the worrisome feature” that it could become unstable at extremely high energies and create a “black hole” that would collapse the universe, the legendary British physicist has warned in a new book titledStarmus, according to the Daily Express.

“This could happen at any time and we wouldn’t see it coming,” Hawking claimed in the book.

Others have raised questions that are more philosophical in nature.

Why, for example, does the logo for CERN contain “666”…


And why is there a statue of the Hindu god Shiva (“the destroyer”) standing right outside CERN headquarters?…

CERN Shiva

In the YouTube video posted below, Jim Staley points these things out, along with the fact that the LHC is built on the site of an ancient town that was dedicated to “Apollyon” in Roman times.  I very much encourage you to watch this 13 minute video…

So what are we to make of all this?

Are European scientists knowingly or unknowingly messing around with some very dark forces?

Let us hope that we don’t get a definitive answer to that question any time soon.

We might not like the answer.

And of course the scientific world doesn’t plan to stop here.  At this point there are plans to have an even larger particle collider operational by 2026

Physicists hope to eventually build larger accelerators that would produce collisions with even more energy than the LHC, which might allow them to discover new particles and better understand dark matter. The proposed International Linear Collider, for instance, would be more than 20 miles long, with a pair of accelerators facing each other straight on, rather than the familiar ring design of the LHC and other accelerators. It’s still pending, but could be built in Japan, with scientists hoping to have it operational by 2026.

I don’t have all the answers, but hopefully I have raised some very important questions in this article.

So what do you think?  Please feel free to join the discussion by posting a comment below…

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Red Heifers In Israel Prompt 3rd Temple Speculation

Red Heifers In Israel Prompt 3rd Temple Speculation.

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